Contemplations

Who am I?
Sometimes I look back and see me, few years ago, a totally different life. Even a totally different person.
Sometimes I feel I am going exactly the right way, then I get surprised when I see evidences of contradictions between my feeling and the truth.
Sometimes I feel that I do not know me that well, I still can't figure out my real abilities and sometimes I think I only know some of my many weaknesses.
Sometimes when I reach this, I start sleeping like large mammals. Or, which is as bad as sleeping, not sleep at all.

I am confused...

What am I doing?
When someone gives me the look that I screw up the whole thing, or when I feel that I am not doing my stuff at all I feel like stopping and asking myself: what am I doing?
The need to do a dozen of things, achieve them all plus maintain a social life sometimes seems like a very hard work for me.
Am I getting old? I think I used to handle all that in the past. Now I see darkness in my face, confusion in my eyes and sadness in my smile.

I am confused...

Where to go?
And why do I need to go at all? Does it worth it? Success? Life? God?

I am confused...

Finally, I pull myself together and continue my daily routine...